Dagen 226

Okej..jag pallar inte stava och skit idag.. Så vi kör svenskii.. Var allmänt trött igår. Fick för mig att färga håret, så där lagom sent. Så nu är jag svinröd på vissa ställen, svart på andra. Röd på öron, panna, hals mm och jag får inte bort det.. Meen vem fan bryr sig..:P

Drar snart till göteborg över helgen. Med Katti, Camilla o Gina.. Kan nog bli jätteskoj. Jag har dock packat för en hel månad. Dock är det mest kudde o sprit som tog plats. Det enda man behöver hihi.
Sonen ska till pappa men allt det överlåter jag med glädje till H. Han tyckte det skulle bli skönt att få vara ensam hemma en hel helg. Jag kontra med att jag gärna kan åka iväg fler gånger.. amsterdam en helg, någon?? Bara säg till..hahah

Vi får se när och om jag kommer hem.. Ska ta massa foton till er.. ^^ Man borde kanske gå o powernappa innan..hihi

Dagen 224

It is almost the middle of the night. I am alone. Anton is sleeping and H is in his garage. He has been nearly all day. Which is both good and bad. I like my alone time but it can get a bit boring since I am finding myself hard to entertain.. Haven't really done anything of importance today. Made a list of things to pack for the weekend. Me and the bitches is going on a road-trip to Göteborg. I am really looking forward to it cause it will be a good break in my boring vacation-time. I feel it will be a crazy weekend but in a very good way.

I feel like a greasy pig today, I look like one to. It is very nice in a freaky way. My hair is like butter, my body smells..well..different.. My nails are in many different lengths which I hate. I have to color my hair, my outgrowth is ridiculous. I need to shave my legs, really bad. I could wax them if I wanted to..hihi.. I did how ever wax my lip. I could grow a moustache if I wanted to :D So now my lips look like two huge pussy lips..and I didn't even get it all.. Well fuck it..who gives a shit..?!

I have been struggling with a feeling today. And now when it is almost night my brain gives up the smart way of thinking and the more emotional shit kicks in. A very smart man told me once that you should never trust your thoughts in the middle of the night. It is just the brain fucking with you.. And it is soo true. Every time I made a bad decision it was made in the middle of the night. Maybe time to learn? :P
This time I will...learn that is.. I will NOT do as my brain wants me to and just leave it at that. Nothing good can come from doing anything anyway.. Confused?? Me to =)

It is the first day of Ramadan today. So Ramadan Kareem to all Muslims out there. I don't know how you do it, I would go crazy without food and drinks ( and no sex haha) during the day so all luck to you.

Now I will go to bed..all greased up and feeling piggy :P

Dagen 222

Ahh I am grumpy. I got woken up today by a freakin' alarm-bell. H had sat his phone to ring at 8. Why?? I have noo idea. The only thing that happens is (like always) I wake up and H don't. I get up and H don't. And I bug him until he gets mad haha. But I am still tired.. I need to get some coffee today I think. I seldom have coffee in the morning, never when I work, sometimes on weekends. If I have coffee it is usually in the afternoon.

Yesterday it rain all day and I really mean ALL DAY. I wanted to go for a powerwalk in the morning, that feeling passed when I stuck my head outside. Lazy? O'yes. But I really don't like rain. It is enough when I have to go out in it when I work. Clothes gets all clammy and shoes squeaks. Same shit today, the sky is all grey white something and no sun in sight. I picked the wrong weeks for vacation. I always have late vacation, like July August. Always sunny.. But noo not this year.. it is depressing. I spent my day in the best way, alone =) H was mostly in his garage and Anton was playing with his friends. They played a little too much for the old folks around here so finally a member of the board came ringing on the door nagging about what the kids done.

I have been home with Anton now for like 2 weeks. Do you know how many times I heard the word Mamma?? Several hundred times.. I drives me crazy.. Everytime he wants to talk to me : Maamma... Maamma... And he can not play be himself. So he needs attention all the time. If he doesn't get it, he plays with the cats who ends up scratching him. No surprise.. Maybe I am a very bad mum but I don't like to sit all day playing games with him, picking my favourite bakugan or watch him play playstationgames.

I have strange taste in art.. This is one of my favourite ever.. Trevor Brown.. His fetish-baby-art is soo sweet..And below is another one.. Luis Royo.. Almost same but so different. <3

I like piercings. I would not have the guts to do these once..maybe.. But they are nice, specially the corset one.. Aoutch..hihi

I acually spent a day with H in the garage. You can see for your self how much fun that was. He needed some help so what to do. At first he bitched about my help but in the end I got him to say that it turned out fucking perfect. I can do car stuff to...^^

This year I had soo many bugs on my balcony that I can't keep score. Grasshoppers, spiders and one or two Pentatomidae. They don't seem to have an english name just latin. In swedish they are called Bärfisar. And it is a proper name, they smell awful.

This last pic is of a Rose geranium. I just got it from my next door neighbour like 5 minutes ago. She has lots of them. She kept the motherplant for over 60 years. It is today a huge bush in her daughters garden. So a while back she promised me one. It is soo sweet. I will keep it on the balcony, in a cooler climate so maybe it will bloom next year. I had many before but they all died. I hope this will live..^^