Dagen 187

A whole week since last entry.. Time flies.. (even when you are not having any fun at all) All I did was work..almost.. all last week.

I had my day off last Thursday. As always, 1000 things to do. Did 5 of them :P I did manage to get some laundry out of the way. Anton was a royal pain in my ass almost all day. He has his rebellious moments. I have to get use to that I think.

H was working..as always.. So we had a picnic in Pildammarna. We packed a blanket, some chicken salad and some drinks and joined Katti and Camilla. (and some other folks) There was this sing-along thing and it was actually very nice. We had great weather, good artists and very nice company. And a good thing is that it is very close to where we live so we could go by bike.

I worked my first weekend this year.. and yep.. I survived and so did everyone else.. :P I worked with Magda the most.. She is so funny. For some reason she things I have very nice calves. You know..the lower part of the leg.. The first time she told me I was standing, hanging in keys.. And now last time when we were cycling on work.. Strange kind of compliment, but still a very nice one. Especially since my sweet H calls them Russian wrestling calves :P So Thaank you Magda.
Over all we had a good weekend. I usually don't like working-weekends. Stuff always goes wrong. It is almost jinxed or something. Only thing I didn't like was..still...the fucking heat.. Working indoors in this is noot nice. Old people have a tendency to not open any windows. Don't ask me why. I should think of it as a good thing, I am sweating some weight off..:P
From xmas last year and today I have lost 10 kg. I don't see any difference but still it feels good and it keeps me motivated. Still a looot of work but it is a good start.

I was free from work today as well. Being out in the sun all weekend made me feel like taking a day indoors. I have a new drug, books. So I took a new book and sat all morning on the balcony. A few hours later the books is over and I have nothing to do :P I read Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist. It was soo good. Never read any of his books before. I recommend it. You should read more!! I was thinking of selling all my books, just to get some room for more. But I have separation anxiety :D Soon I will need a new bookshelf.

And I ate my first yellow strawberries. They tasted just like the red ones. Good that is =) I never had so many bugs in my plants on the balcony as this year. And at work, sunday, I had like 6 (!!!) different spiders on me. What is this?? Maybe a sign from God, hahah. The end is near.

Dagen 179

This weekend is soon over and work awaits tomorrow. And still it feels so good. I had a great couple of days and I am very pleased. Some weekends just flies by without anything happening, some is overfilled with stuff and gets too much, this was just perfect.

Anton went to his dad on Thursday, and he will get back tomorrow. He is back in a phase where he wants to be at both dad's and here. And it sux. He gets sad when he has to go and it kills me. I hope it will pass and when he gets older he will feel more relaxed with this. He misses his siblings and dad when he is here and vice versa. Being a mum sux sometimes..really... before you get kids nothing can ever hurt you in the same way as when your child is in pain. Any form of pain. Price you pay for love.
Friday I had work.(I knooow..midsummer-eve and all) It was over-all a good day, just had one incident that was..hmm..how should I put it.. NOT so good.. Hahah.. I can't really tell you about it, just that I have never ever before heard the word dick sooo many times in one hour as that morning. For real..no joke. I felt a bit violated and mentally raped :D (But I will get over it, next year or something)
H's spent his friday morning in bed..just doing nothing. He was in his morning-rob when I got home like 1.30. But he had earned it so no complaining. We did all the shopping for the evening the day before so all we had to do was get it to camilla's car. Me like simplicity =)
We spent all evening and half the night with some great company out at Camilla's aunts place. We had looots of good food, barbecue, herring, potatoes, salad, lots of good drinks and strawberries and whipped cream. Just as it should be on midsummer-eve. We had some games, and we ALL LIVED. The two couples against all the singles.... we should had won, really :D
Saturday was a very relaxed day..And I do mean very.. H was going to go to his garage so I tangled along. I brought my book, Doktor Glas and finished it. And one more. I spent all day in the sun listening to H swearing at the car and reading. It was soo lovely. I read like 500+ pages that day. The other book was too good to stop reading. I got a bit burned on my arms but I don't mind. It was not so bad. I need some tanning.
Today H had work. For once I had the bed all to myself on a morning :D Me like.. Usually he wakes me up by stealing my pillow.. I hate that. I need all my three pillows. He obviously needs more than his three.. maybe I should get him some more.. Like a princess..:P I went to see Desi. We went to Rosengård and did some shopping. Got some diner, barbecue chicken and potato salad and of course ice-cream. And then we spent the whole day on her balcony playing kalaha, solving crosswords puzzles, drinking water (like 2.5 liters each) and talking shit. It was hot, hot and hotter on the balcony but it was okej. Maybe I sweat of a few grams..
Sweet dream..:D

Dagen 172

Is it just me or do you all just wanna puke on soccer? It is sooo booooring..ZzzZZZzzZzzzzZ.. First all they talked about was the Royal wedding and now soccer. Thank god it is over =)
The wedding I understand. It is once in a lifetime for our Princess but soccer..come on. Every week someone is playing a soccer match somewhere. Sport today is too much money and too hype to be good for anyone. And why is a Swedish coach training a none-swedish team? It is just too much shit in sports today, not all but the major ones like soccer, hockey..like that.

Work is nice, I have to admit :D I do miss Maria, she is off somewhere in Europe, like Paris. And Emma is on her maternity leave. She finally got a girl. Three boys and then a girl. Way to go, I would kill myself haha. And Zana..hihi She is soo pretty. On new years even of 2009 she decided to start using a veil. She converted to Islam some time ago and she seems soo at peace. She is so calm and happy and almost glowing. It is almost magical. I am not surprised to see her in the veil but it takes some getting use to =) She publishes some Islamic stuff on facebook every now and then. I look at it sometimes and I found some great shit. And noo I am not going Muslim, chill.. Buut I found a video called 60 ways to keep your wife's love. Every man should see it, for real. Muslim or not. It was awesome. It made perfect sense :P And that my male Swedish friends is way gilrs like Arabs haha.. That and their dark olive skin.. (drool, drool)

I got some stuff the other day. One of them smelled coconut. I hate that..haha. Not hate the smell but it always reminds me of a certain time and place and era in life, involving sunbathing, Hawaiian sunscreen and a blanket haha. It is a sweet memory but still it is hard for me to grasp. That I will have no more memories like that. And it still makes me sad, sometimes. Time flies and I know that things will never be as they were but still.. One can't help remembering. I wish there was something I could do about it but knowing there is not gives me some comfort.

Anyway...back to the stuff...^^ I decided to be nice and give some away.. My mother-in-law has a birthday coming up so she will get something nice. I need to improve my karma haha.. Or maybe it is evened out by my massive toothache and shit. Who knows?? Better safe then sorry.. And Miss S will get something to. Maybe she will be surprised, I hope so. I just love her, she is so like me it is scary. And I was thinking of sending some to Åsa and Pia, my sister-in-laws. (I think they are, haha) But I don't know if they like stuff like that. I just feel like I want to do something nice for others. (Yeah, I am not sick...haha)

And I changed the look on the blog, don't ask me why. Summerfeelings maybe ^^ Blue felt better then gloomy brown. And yes, it is all in english. I know some of you hate it :D And maybe some Swedish shit will appear later but for now, English it is.
I finally started the book I have been waiting like forever for..Doktor Glas. And it is not as good as I wanted it to be. It is good, old school swedish and all but I was hoping for more. I still have like two thirds left so maybe it will pick up. It is a very short book, only 155 pages. I like to work when you don't have school. It is not the same. School is always there, morning, evening, night. Job is job, 7-13.30 and then noo more. I have much more time for me, for books, for everything working. I dread next semester, work + school 100 %..yucky.

I don't understand people. Hahah... Some people have no money. Like always no money. They can't go anywhere, they can't buy stuff they see as luxury (or basic sometimes) But still they have money for tattoos.. How the f*ck it that possible?? Maybe it is how you prioritize but still. I think it is very very strange.
Well that is all I manage to interest you with today.. Now I will go eaaaat..... Bawse...^^

Dagen 108

Vad jag är kass på att skriva. Jag har inget liv, måste vara därför..hahah.
Eller jo det har jag ju.

Jag skulle plugga i fredags..blev inte så.. Skulle pluggat idag med men blev inte så igen. Lat? dålig disciplin? Oh ja... Very very.. Meen det är ju så tråkigt med arbetsmiljö och lagar. Min syn på de flesta lagar är att dom är till för att brytas, mer eller mindre. Som alla regler :D

Softa hela fredagen. Fick sms av Tanja..undra om hon kommit hem liksom. Hon var i Barcelona på weekend. Flygen går ju inte så hur ska man komma hem? Får kanske en låång resa istället.

Lördagen gick himla långsamt. Åkte en runda till Burlöv, hittade ett par skor o leggings.. Jippi liksom..
Fick färgat håret. Jag gör inte det allt för ofta alltså. Utväxten var inte att leka med.Fick ett fungerande tips av Katti om hur fan man får bort färgen i skalpen. (jag älskar ordet skalp haha) Man tar en disksvamp, öser på diskmedel och gnuggar som satan. It works!

Bjöd in mig till Carro på grym köttfärspaj, sprit och spel med Camilla. Vi tog en runda på Möllan, Ölkafét. Lagom varmt/kallt på uteserveringen. Sov som en stock när jag väl hittat en taxi om kunde få min bakdel hem.

Söndagen skulle jag ju som sagt plugga. Meen jag hamnade på balkongen med en bok. Hundra och en dag, av Åsne Seierstad. Vet inte vad det är med mig men Mellanöstern har alltid fascinerat mig. Boken berörde mig verkligen och fast jag var svintrött så kunde jag inte släppa den. Jag tycker att fler borde läsa om krig och elände. Nu menar jag inte nyheterna på tv, utan om verkliga skildringar. Då kanske man hade haft mer förståelse för alla människor som vill komma hit till vårt fina land. Och man hade kanske delat med sig av mer. Ökat sin tolerans. Visat omtanke och förståelse. Så läs den.. Ni kommer inte ångra er. När hon skrev om hur barn blev bombade, lemlästade, granatsplitter, sjukhusen så grät jag. Man kan inte ta in sånt om man levt hela sitt liv skyddad i Sverige.

Vid 18 kom Anton hem och inget mer vettigt blev gjort idag.. ( haha vadå mer..INGET vettigt blev gjort på hela dagen ju) Plugga ska jag göra imorgon..jag lovar mig själv.. Jag ska inte titta mot bokhyllan alls.

Man vill bli älskad....

Varför har jag inte läst Dr Glas? Det får bli mitt nästa projekt. Ibland kommer jag på saker som jag bara måste göra, det fattas mig att inte ha gjort.

"Man vill bli älskad, i brist därpå beundrad, i brist därpå fruktad, i brist därpå avskydd och föraktad. Man vill ingiva människorna någon slags känsla. Själen ryser för tomrummet och vill kontakt till vad pris som helst."

Kom idag återigen på en anledning till varför jag ska läsa den. Den är återkommande, så det finns en mening med att jag ska läsa den.

Jag vet meningen redan.